Don't let anyone tell you what it means. No church, priest, or pastor has a monopoly on these teachings. It's your journey.
If you don't feel comfortable going to a church, don't feel pressured to. If you ever sit down with even just one person to discuss your feelings on the Bible, then that is a church.
People who read the bible without any religious context, as if it was just a book, will almost certainly see only a disjointed and contradictory collection of ancient stories and writings. Without any religious context that is all the bible is. Oral traditions still matter and that is why Jews and Christians have such wildly different understandings of the Hebrew texts.
If you've struggled to get into the Bible before, consider reading the NLT translation.
Read it slow. Maybe one chapter a day. (They're very short chapters.) It will take you a few years at that rate.
Start from the beginning. Read it in order.
NLT can be read online:
https://biblehub.com/nlt/genesis/1.htm
Don't let anyone tell you what it means. No church, priest, or pastor has a monopoly on these teachings. It's your journey.
If you don't feel comfortable going to a church, don't feel pressured to. If you ever sit down with even just one person to discuss your feelings on the Bible, then that is a church.