Other advice here is good, but I think it's worth pointing out that psychology, spirituality, and religion contain the tools for working on problems like this.
Fundamentally: you are afraid, so you will want to work with tools that work with fear. That's probably most of them.
Prayer, psychedelics, meditation, any of the thousands of healing traditions, shamanic traditions, psychoanalysis, personal development methodologies.
What's important is to open yourself to the possibility that life could be a lot better, and that there are more avenues to achieving that than you can count. Stay curious and try things.
Fundamentally: you are afraid, so you will want to work with tools that work with fear. That's probably most of them.
Prayer, psychedelics, meditation, any of the thousands of healing traditions, shamanic traditions, psychoanalysis, personal development methodologies.
What's important is to open yourself to the possibility that life could be a lot better, and that there are more avenues to achieving that than you can count. Stay curious and try things.