You shouldn't have to change. The people you interact should accommodate you as you are. If they don't do that then they're not the right people to be around and you're wasting your time with them. Take your feet and walk away if people or situations make you feel uncomfortable. Find those people and those situations that you do feel comfortable with instead of trying to change yourself.
It's an anxiety you're inflicting on yourself by trying to fit in groups you don't belong and trying to immitate behaviors that are not natural to you. You'll never succeed if you go like that. People appreciate authenticity. If you have to make effort then a) you won't look authentic, b) you will constantly have the stress of keeping up with that false persona.
You just have to let go, appreciate yourself how you are and then others will too. Be awkward, laugh at yourself being awkward, be weird and f*k everyone. If they don't like how you are then that's their problem, not yours. You'll find others that do.
It's an anxiety you're inflicting on yourself by trying to fit in groups you don't belong and trying to immitate behaviors that are not natural to you. You'll never succeed if you go like that. People appreciate authenticity. If you have to make effort then a) you won't look authentic, b) you will constantly have the stress of keeping up with that false persona.
You just have to let go, appreciate yourself how you are and then others will too. Be awkward, laugh at yourself being awkward, be weird and f*k everyone. If they don't like how you are then that's their problem, not yours. You'll find others that do.