I had mark@apple.com during my time there, accidentally got added to one of the exec’s threads from Tim and felt pretty silly (and didn’t read anything in that thread, couldn’t delete it fast enough, had to email Tim to explain)
I don’t want to know things I’m not supposed to know. There’s no benefit to having that information. I’m not going to blackmail someone with it. I can’t profit over it. Better to delete immediately.